Forgiveness. Redemption.

It is for you. It should also come from you. It was bought on the cross at a high price, Jesus.

I remember when I first discovered that I was pregnant. A moment that is supposed to be joyous..was more so anxiety-ridden for me.

I‘d been celibate after deciding to completely dedicate my life to Christ. I called myself a Christian for years, but one day I'd finally decided to stop only knowing Jesus as Savior, but also making Him the Lord over every aspect of my life.

That's a different post for a different time though.

Anyhow, I battled with the thoughts of the opinions of others. How was I going to explain to my parents, family, friends. social media, and God, that the celibate girl was pregnant?

I took it to the Lord in worship and in prayer. A good cry in the shower with worship music is always good for the soul. The song "Do It Again" by Elevation Worship came on, and God reassured me that He still loves me and His promise for my life did/does not end there.

However, guilt and shame continued to overwhelm me. I began to wonder if I should just go through with abortion and repent for it after (please don't do this--James 4:17, Hebrews 10:26)? Move to another city, never tell my family, and start a new life? Leave the church? Give up on my faith? Surely I was too far gone right?


God reassured me through His word. "Do you live for the approval of man or the approval of God?" Galatians 1:10

I was so caught up in the opinions of others that I was contemplating on hiding my sin with ANOTHER sin. Like, sis, come on now. That's exactly what David did with Bathsheba (2 Samuel 11).

I was so caught up in pride and shame, that I was overlooking the redemption offered through Christ.
Ephesians 1:7 ESV" In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace,"

If you are reading this, and you can relate, I just want you to know that there is forgiveness and redemption in Jesus Christ. God still loves you. His arms are wide open for you to return to Him. Do not hide from Him in shame and guilt. Bring this to the Lord and allow Him to use your pregnancy and your child for His glory.

The enemy is a loser, however, and will still attack your thought life. He will tell you that you're unworthy. That God doesn't love you anymore. That you already messed up so you might as well stop pursuing God. He is a liar! Stay rooted in God's truth. God's word is the perfect truth. It invalidates any lie that the enemy will try to tell you.

When I struggled with negative thoughts throughout my pregnancy, these truths helped me. Feel free to leave more in the comments!

- Isaiah 43

- Isaiah 59

- Jeremiah 29

- Luke 1:45

Yes, premarital sex is a sin. Yes, pregnancy should happen within the confines of marriage, but here's another biblical truth: THERE IS REDEMPTION IN THE NAME AND BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST.

Accept the forgiveness that Jesus paid for. Forgive yourself. Walk free of shame & guilt.


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